So I'm still trying to get my pre-baby body back. Yes, I know it's been four months, but it's been a tough road, ok. These last 10 pounds are hangin' on like the plague and in order to not shoot myself, I've told myself that it's because I'm still nursing.
Now some might say that I'm just being vain, that I look good (Bryce always seems to think so, though I don't know why. I'm definitely thicker than the woman he married), or that I should just accept my new body because I'll never be a size 4 again. But besides really, really wanting to look great (yes, I know that's my vanity speaking again) - like, we're talking I've-never-had-a-baby-or-even-needed-to-work-out-and-I-can-eat-whatever-I-want-and-still-look-good kind of great. Besides that, it's a fiscal thing too.
You see, in these hard, economic times...oh, who am I kidding. Since Bryce is a full-time student, and I'm a full-time Mom, our income consists of student loans, whatever the government will give us (bless this fine liberal state of WA that has given us lots! but don't worry, we've paid taxes since we were 16 and will be paying loads more all over again starting in just a year or two, so we've gotten over feeling sheepish and prideful about using what the state has to offer our little student family), and the generosity of family (namely, parents), so we haven't really been affected by the economy...yet.
However, as I said, we are poor students trying to raise two kids on no income and limited school loans, and we simply don't have the money for me to "just accept my new body" because that would mean "accepting" a new wardrobe as well. Don't get me wrong, I'm all about new clothes, but if it's because I'm a fatty...not so much.
So if ever there were motivation, I've got it (as I sit here eating my Safeway chocolate chewie. Hey, it's made with egg whites, ok)! Even if my toddler walked in on me today doing some crunches on an exercise ball and burst into hysterics. And even if his impersonation of me was just lying limply on the ball. And even if my 4 month old has decided she wants to eat ALL the time allowing her mommy no sleep, making it virtually impossible to get up to go running (and I have to run in the morning because it's just too darn hot and I'm too darn tired any other time). Despite those things, and others I won't mention, I won't be thwarted!
So ten pounds - it's on!
Or really, I'm hoping it's off!
4 comments:
Sorry for the deleted post I didn't proof read and it was bad.
paige, it not just vanity that you want to lose the weight but it also makes you feel better...just a note to yourself you may get to the weight you desire but it does fall in the same places...you'll be surprise what parts of your body is bigger or smaller. Good Luck and we miss you in Primary!
Good Luck! I'm going to be sitting in your shoes next year when my husband starts medical school...
I don't know if I've introduced myself, but I knew Bryce when he was on his mission. He's a great guy, and you guys have a most adorable family!
First of all, if you lose 10 pounds, then you'll practically disappear!--
I obviously hadn't checked your blog in a while, either!!_-sorry for not being a better friend! Mattie is 4 months!? She's adorable!
Yes, I'm pregnant, due in September and we're SO excited. We're also excited to have all of our Law School friends back in the fall!
Do you guys do any sort of mom's group? I hope to see more of you since I'll be at home full time :)
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